Notafed
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I wrote a lot in my introduction, and I messed up and lost over half of it when trying to post and it was still probably one of the longest to grace this forum. All's that's to say I can write alot and am not concise. You have been warned. TLDR at the bottom
I don't remember how much made it into my intro, but I started at around 360 to 365lbs. One day with my full work uniform and EDC(phone,wallet,exc) I saw 370 flash for a second before I got a 369 some something. I feel like a lot of people would remember the exact number but all I remembered was seeing that 7 and being both scared and willing myself to remember this wasn't an accurate reading with all my stuff on me. It wasn't too much later I started compounded Tirzepatide. I like many had tried weight loss in the past and I would usually be semi-successfull before hitting a wall and a crash out. I had always felt and still do that your not going to make change until your ready and want that change bad enough.
Well I wasn't to my second shot that I found out for work reasons I needed to get under 300lbs and quick. Tirzepatide also hadn't been magical that first week. But I had found my reason. I am fully aware of how rare it is that I genuinely like my job and am fulfilled by it, and wasn't ready to lose it for a million reasons. I had been hit with a new second huge reason for change after I had already had gotten into the position of wanting change. I feel lucky in a sense I got hit with two shots of motivation instead of one and then Tirzepatide worked. I could tell I wasn't hungry could get full fast, all the niceity. Call it three shots of motivation now.
For 3 months straight I would wind up losing 20ish lbs a month and crossing below 300 before my job was at risk in the 4th month with little time to spare. It was Tirz but it was also walking on a treadmill for a hour straight twice a day before and after work in the heat of the summer. I don't think it would have been possible without Tirzepatide, but I don't think it was everything. I also am not advocating this route, this was not healthy, but I will also say losing weight IS healthy at the 4th month I already physically felt better even with the crazy working out and calorie restriction. I think it needs to be said and I feel like it's the difference between stopping smoking or switching to a vape. I am not a smoker, but I can imagine the vape is even if not perfect a harm reduction tool, it just shouldn't be picked up instead of smoking in the first place.
So don't do it the way I did, but at the same time I can't be convinced that if that was the only way I could have done it, it wasn't still a better choice then not doing anything. That all being said now once my job wasn't at risk I lost some motivation and weight loss slowed. But it has never stopped. Further even if it feels like I have hit a wall of sorts it's not nearly as bad and there has been no crash out.
So, now the milestone I have hit 268lbs and while I wait for 260 I am going to call it now I am 100lbs down IMO. I am not done, and am going to keep pushing, but I wanted to put that out there. I never told anyone except a few telehealth doctors my weight at my highest point. It's too the point that nearly anyone comfortable enough to mention has mentioned they can see it, and while it's hard for me to admit seeing it I am still obese, after all, the signs are too much for even me to ignore. But a few people who think they know what I weighed don't I often lied and said around 330 no one knows except me and now you all I have actually lost a full 100lbs.
So, now the update weight loss is a lot more pragmatic and I might be lucky to lose 3lbs a week and can expect less and fluctuations, I am fully aware this is still probably 3 times better than many here and I don't gloat, I want to point out to anyone new that it's going to get no matter how good for you less good over time most likely. And I expect if I keep going towards a healthy BMI it's only going to get slower. I also think I replaced some of my work danger motivation with adding Reta and if I hadn't I would have slowed down more or stopped completely for awhile after being full throttle accelerator broken for so long.
So now the realization, here's the thing Tirzepatide did all the things but I never felt more confident than when I hit 5mg on week 5 and got the tiredness for a whole day and maybe at 10mg when one week in month 4 when I felt actual food aversion to the breakfast I had just made the morning after shot day that I refused to finish that I had wanted too. But the tiredness didn't stay and the literal food aversion didn't stay and maybe that's good in a practical sense to not have sides, but some of that feeling of magic of lighting caught in a vial left. The invulnerability of knowing you can do it with this aid and seeing another 5lb gone a week later as proof again and again. Then I added reta both to try the new thing, but more so I think to catch lighting again. And I did!
The first shot of Reta I took I got the skin sensitivity and more than any additional satity and weight loss the skin sensitivity told me I got the real stuff and it was doing something. I almost enjoyed it and it wasn't painful. But before I had even finished that vial each dose the same the skin sensitivity became less prominent till it was gone. And I realized that this was no longer going to be a thriller like when I was racing a clock for my livelihood as scary as that was. It wasn't going to be the heist oceans 11 vibe of gathering a stockpile against the will of big pharma and the man once I had stockpiled more than I need for years. I am not giving up, but my realization is this is going to have phases like real life, like a relationship the fairy tale stage isn't forever.
It in a pessimistic sense feels like it does nothing these days not that I am suddenly hungry, but I was spoiled and now a new normal has set in. Which makes sense those who never had difficulty with weight loss wouldn't understand any more than I can understand what someone who was born blind sees or explain a color to the colorblind. It's just so crazy how even conscious of it one can so quickly lose appreciation. I can't imagine if I were born blind and given sight I would take it for granted, but I probably would. I thought to write all this when people keep talking about suppliers and one over another being effective and I am sure there is something to it sometimes, but I think if anyone is like me they are an unreliable narrator. Over time things change
I write all this just for whoever reads it and feels similar to know your not alone or who is new to enjoy the magic, but also maybe this is the normal ending. I don't think a relationship needs to be fairly tale from begining to end to be fulfilling. Hopefully I slowly but surely reach a healthy BMI and it certainly looks that way, but at the end miracle this medicine is it's really just bringing me a normalicy I was denied. I got lasik a long time ago and for quite a few days I would wake up and reach for my glasses it was cool and fun to realize I don't need them and was seeing sharper than ever before. I don't and never have regreted lasik, but it did its job and I don't reach for my glasses anymore. It doesn't make it less worth it, it does make it less fun and just a tad bit less magical. And I think that's okay it's just something to come to terms with.
*I definitely see myself on glp medicine for life and don't want to lose it just to remember the past any more than I would want to see blurry again to appreciate where I have gotten from where I was.
TLDR I am now a 100lbs down, over time side effects have went away and positive effects while still there feel like normalcy in a way medicine feels like it does nothing now even though I can tell on a less prominent sense that isn't the case. Realization is that maybe this is normalcy and with that comes an acceptance, but also a loss of magic and "big feelings" ie (excitement, rage against the machine, struggle against fate, edgelord stuff). I got Lasik once upon a time, it was cool when I reached for my glasses in the morning and they weren't there and I didn't need them, but I don't reach for them anymore and I have to accept that while less cool is normal and maybe that being normal is a different kind of magic one I need to learn to appreciate more day in and day out.
I don't remember how much made it into my intro, but I started at around 360 to 365lbs. One day with my full work uniform and EDC(phone,wallet,exc) I saw 370 flash for a second before I got a 369 some something. I feel like a lot of people would remember the exact number but all I remembered was seeing that 7 and being both scared and willing myself to remember this wasn't an accurate reading with all my stuff on me. It wasn't too much later I started compounded Tirzepatide. I like many had tried weight loss in the past and I would usually be semi-successfull before hitting a wall and a crash out. I had always felt and still do that your not going to make change until your ready and want that change bad enough.
Well I wasn't to my second shot that I found out for work reasons I needed to get under 300lbs and quick. Tirzepatide also hadn't been magical that first week. But I had found my reason. I am fully aware of how rare it is that I genuinely like my job and am fulfilled by it, and wasn't ready to lose it for a million reasons. I had been hit with a new second huge reason for change after I had already had gotten into the position of wanting change. I feel lucky in a sense I got hit with two shots of motivation instead of one and then Tirzepatide worked. I could tell I wasn't hungry could get full fast, all the niceity. Call it three shots of motivation now.
For 3 months straight I would wind up losing 20ish lbs a month and crossing below 300 before my job was at risk in the 4th month with little time to spare. It was Tirz but it was also walking on a treadmill for a hour straight twice a day before and after work in the heat of the summer. I don't think it would have been possible without Tirzepatide, but I don't think it was everything. I also am not advocating this route, this was not healthy, but I will also say losing weight IS healthy at the 4th month I already physically felt better even with the crazy working out and calorie restriction. I think it needs to be said and I feel like it's the difference between stopping smoking or switching to a vape. I am not a smoker, but I can imagine the vape is even if not perfect a harm reduction tool, it just shouldn't be picked up instead of smoking in the first place.
So don't do it the way I did, but at the same time I can't be convinced that if that was the only way I could have done it, it wasn't still a better choice then not doing anything. That all being said now once my job wasn't at risk I lost some motivation and weight loss slowed. But it has never stopped. Further even if it feels like I have hit a wall of sorts it's not nearly as bad and there has been no crash out.
So, now the milestone I have hit 268lbs and while I wait for 260 I am going to call it now I am 100lbs down IMO. I am not done, and am going to keep pushing, but I wanted to put that out there. I never told anyone except a few telehealth doctors my weight at my highest point. It's too the point that nearly anyone comfortable enough to mention has mentioned they can see it, and while it's hard for me to admit seeing it I am still obese, after all, the signs are too much for even me to ignore. But a few people who think they know what I weighed don't I often lied and said around 330 no one knows except me and now you all I have actually lost a full 100lbs.
So, now the update weight loss is a lot more pragmatic and I might be lucky to lose 3lbs a week and can expect less and fluctuations, I am fully aware this is still probably 3 times better than many here and I don't gloat, I want to point out to anyone new that it's going to get no matter how good for you less good over time most likely. And I expect if I keep going towards a healthy BMI it's only going to get slower. I also think I replaced some of my work danger motivation with adding Reta and if I hadn't I would have slowed down more or stopped completely for awhile after being full throttle accelerator broken for so long.
So now the realization, here's the thing Tirzepatide did all the things but I never felt more confident than when I hit 5mg on week 5 and got the tiredness for a whole day and maybe at 10mg when one week in month 4 when I felt actual food aversion to the breakfast I had just made the morning after shot day that I refused to finish that I had wanted too. But the tiredness didn't stay and the literal food aversion didn't stay and maybe that's good in a practical sense to not have sides, but some of that feeling of magic of lighting caught in a vial left. The invulnerability of knowing you can do it with this aid and seeing another 5lb gone a week later as proof again and again. Then I added reta both to try the new thing, but more so I think to catch lighting again. And I did!
The first shot of Reta I took I got the skin sensitivity and more than any additional satity and weight loss the skin sensitivity told me I got the real stuff and it was doing something. I almost enjoyed it and it wasn't painful. But before I had even finished that vial each dose the same the skin sensitivity became less prominent till it was gone. And I realized that this was no longer going to be a thriller like when I was racing a clock for my livelihood as scary as that was. It wasn't going to be the heist oceans 11 vibe of gathering a stockpile against the will of big pharma and the man once I had stockpiled more than I need for years. I am not giving up, but my realization is this is going to have phases like real life, like a relationship the fairy tale stage isn't forever.
It in a pessimistic sense feels like it does nothing these days not that I am suddenly hungry, but I was spoiled and now a new normal has set in. Which makes sense those who never had difficulty with weight loss wouldn't understand any more than I can understand what someone who was born blind sees or explain a color to the colorblind. It's just so crazy how even conscious of it one can so quickly lose appreciation. I can't imagine if I were born blind and given sight I would take it for granted, but I probably would. I thought to write all this when people keep talking about suppliers and one over another being effective and I am sure there is something to it sometimes, but I think if anyone is like me they are an unreliable narrator. Over time things change
I write all this just for whoever reads it and feels similar to know your not alone or who is new to enjoy the magic, but also maybe this is the normal ending. I don't think a relationship needs to be fairly tale from begining to end to be fulfilling. Hopefully I slowly but surely reach a healthy BMI and it certainly looks that way, but at the end miracle this medicine is it's really just bringing me a normalicy I was denied. I got lasik a long time ago and for quite a few days I would wake up and reach for my glasses it was cool and fun to realize I don't need them and was seeing sharper than ever before. I don't and never have regreted lasik, but it did its job and I don't reach for my glasses anymore. It doesn't make it less worth it, it does make it less fun and just a tad bit less magical. And I think that's okay it's just something to come to terms with.
*I definitely see myself on glp medicine for life and don't want to lose it just to remember the past any more than I would want to see blurry again to appreciate where I have gotten from where I was.
TLDR I am now a 100lbs down, over time side effects have went away and positive effects while still there feel like normalcy in a way medicine feels like it does nothing now even though I can tell on a less prominent sense that isn't the case. Realization is that maybe this is normalcy and with that comes an acceptance, but also a loss of magic and "big feelings" ie (excitement, rage against the machine, struggle against fate, edgelord stuff). I got Lasik once upon a time, it was cool when I reached for my glasses in the morning and they weren't there and I didn't need them, but I don't reach for them anymore and I have to accept that while less cool is normal and maybe that being normal is a different kind of magic one I need to learn to appreciate more day in and day out.
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