The “I have to force myself to function like a normal human being” part has been one of the scariest aspects for me too. It’s such a strange kind of malaise because it feels way beyond ordinary nausea or fatigue.THIS IS EXACTLY HOW I FELT! I had to force myself to do everything for the last 10 days.
You might be right about the accumulation thing. The last dose of 5mg I took last sunday was from a new vial, as the last vial didn't even even last 4 weeks. I am thinking this new vial might be more than the 20mg it was supposed to be. Plus this time I reserved some of the BAC to prime the filter and flush the last bit of reta out of it after I filtered it. The COA some guy showed me of the vial he had tested from that same batch had 22mg in it. That's the only thing I can think of. I was supposed to take my dose last night but I figured I better wait until I'm well.
Since I feel a lot better today, I think I am going to pin 2mg tonight and then another 2mg on Friday morning if things go well.
I don't blame you for being apprehensive about starting back up. I never want to feel like that again and I'm sure you don't either. I guess that's risk we take doing these China peps. I'm 12lbs from my goal and I'm not in a big hurry so I am gonna split for a while and see how it goes.
Your theory about the vial actually makes a lot of sense, especially combined with the accumulation possibility. A slightly overdosed vial + delayed build-up could absolutely explain why it suddenly felt so disproportionate after previously tolerating it.
Hearing that you already feel much better today gives me a lot of hope, because I’m also improving… just frustratingly slowly haha
Your split-dose plan sounds really reasonable and cautious to me. Please report back how it goes, because right now I feel emotionally betrayed by syringes and I need success stories…
Also congratulations on being only 12 lbs from goal, honestly at that point taking things slowly and carefully sounds very wise.