update: tapering did not work for me. I couldn't seem to get below ten a day. I ran out of cigarettes and stopped making more. (I still have several more pounds of tobacco, my machine, and many boxes of the tubes, which I expect my dearest friend's husband may inherit soon.) I'm hitting a vape for now, and my last cigarette was a week ago.
I am deeply depressed and I hate everybody. You guys, my mom, my coworkers, both my cats, anybody else you can put in front of me. I wake up in the morning, feel horribly depressed, think "Wait, my life is WONDERFUL, what on earth do I have to feel depressed about?" then I look for my box of cigarettes, they're not there, and I remember that I'm depressed because I want a cigarette and can't have one. So I hit the vape, and it is not satisfactory, but nothing will be as satisfactory as holding a flaming stick to suck smoke into my lungs from, and so I am depressed.
August first, and my friend's husband gets the vape, and the backup vape. Then I'll be even MORE depressed for awhile, then less, then fine.